Friday, April 27, 2012

Weigh In and Friday Phone Dump

Weigh in Day - April 27
Previous weight - 198.6
Current weight - 196
Difference - lost 2.6 lbs.

Total weight lost - 49 pounds



I've been wanting to write all week about the success I've made with my menu planning but it has been an INSANE week - lots of things happened that I had not planned on - which if I had not menu planned and grocery shopped would have been a complete disaster in the food department.

I hope to be able to be back soon to write, but I was proud of my loss and wanted to post it.

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Friday Phone Dump - didn't even have time to take many photos this week - it was a doozy!

1. buddies 2. birthday presents 3. peyton
4. wine and cheese 5. gracie's home 6. hawaiian day

Friday, April 20, 2012

Weigh In and Friday Phone Dump

Weigh in Day - April 20
Previous weight - 196.2
Current weight - 198.6
Difference - gain 2.4

Total weight lost - 46.4 pounds



For me the hard part of being a wellness blogger that posts their weekly weigh-in is that it's really hard to post when you have a gain. Especially a large gain like I have this week. To be honest, it wasn't a surprise gain - I just didn't expect it to be over two pounds - but if I had tracked this week I would have known that. (if I would have tracked this week, I wouldn't have gained!)

Moving on.

I'm an introvert. That may be a surprise to some of you and not to others. Just because I'm an introvert doesn't mean I don't like to be social or lead or speak in public. It just means that those things are harder for me and take work. Another characteristic about introverts is we need to think about what we say before we say it. And let me tell you I've done a lot of thinking this week about menu planning and I am ready to take it by the horns. I'm really excited about it.

So this week I have some goals.

BHAG for the week.
(if you don't sit through strategic planning meetings on a regular basis you may not know what BHAG is - it is pronounced "bee hag" and stands for Big Hairy Audacious Goal.)
Menu plan the entire week - including breakfast and lunch

Achievable goals for the week.
  1. Track all meals
  2. Go to Zumba at least three times


Friday Phone Dump (have I mentioned how much I love instagram?)

1. (empty) margaritas 2. wine and canvas 3. good morning 4. instagram profile pic
5. blueberry breakfast crisp 6. ballet 7. pooches 8. cookies and canvas
9. dance class 10. can't wait to read the bloggess' book 11. big dog in tiny bed 12. air
 
 What's your BHAG for the week?

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Meal Planning - follow up

If you read my post yesterday about being a big baby and finally sucking it up and starting my meal planning process and you happened to relate to anything I said ... then you'll want to check out today's post on IHeart Organizing. Your mind will be blown!

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Meal Planning - why I was being a big baby

One thing I know is I have the most success when I have all aspects of wellness going strong simultaneously. Another thing I know is that is extremely hard to do.

What I'm talking about is having my eating and exercise "A game" on both at the same time. The reason it's so hard for me is because it's a lot of balls to be juggling. I'm one of those people who don't like to do things that I'm not good at and when it comes to things I'm good at, I overdo it.

So the last couple of months I have the exercise part of my wellness goals down pat - those balls are being juggled just fine. I'm working with Jim to make sure I get to class, I have my workout clothes clean and ready to go, I know where my water bottle is - I'm nailing it.

The eating part? Not so much. Some of the eating balls are up in the air, but others are flying all over the place and several of them are on the ground collecting dust.

My biggest obstacle right now is I don't want to go grocery shopping because I don't know what to fix for meals. Finding recipes with less than five ingredients, that take less than 45 minutes to make and that all four of us will like is nearly impossible. I'm not good at it, so I don't even want to try.

As the working day started to come to an end yesterday, I started thinking about evening responsibilities: dinner, homework, laundry, etc. What was I going to make for dinner?

Oh my gosh you guys - I just wanted to cry my eyes out. I realized that this has been a huge cloud over me lately. I haven't been cooking, I haven't been grocery shopping. It seems like whatever I do make, Gracie won't eat. Jim would be happy with cereal, but I don't want that. I want to make a healthy warm dinner, on plates and to sit all together at the table and actually talk for five minutes before we are all running off to do our own thing.

I know me and when I feel this out of control, getting the control back is exactly what I need.

So I took the first step.

I read a blog post on menu planning that I've had pinned for awhile. The first step was to write down a list of dinners that we eat on a regular basis. I was so resistant to even do this tiny step. It seemed too easy, but yet like a huge task. I wrote down a few things like spaghetti, tacos, chili. And then I remembered a weight watchers chimichangas recipe that we had tried a few months ago that we really liked so I wrote that down. Before I knew it I had a dozen meals written down.

That gave me the little bit of confidence I needed to take the next step. I picked out five meals from the list to make for dinner this week.

Then I realized that I would need the recipes and ingredient list so I could go to the grocery store. I printed off the recipes that I had on my list and added them to a binder in protector sheets.



I was feeling so much better with just those easy steps. Reading this back makes me fee so incompetent, but I honestly was so overwhelmed by this area in my life that I couldn't even find the strength to fix it. It's one of those things I wish I would have just tried months ago.

Last night I made the chimichangas and we ate as a family. And we talked. And everyone ate everything on their plate.

I would like to build on this little foundation I started and continue working on meals plans, trying new recipes, getting a system down that works for us.

Oh and p.s. - I had leftovers so I brought them to work today instead of eating out. Score!


Friday, April 13, 2012

Weigh In and Friday Phone Dump

Weigh in Day - April 13
Previous weight - 196 (March 23)
Current weight - 196.2
Difference - gain .2

Total weight lost - 48.8 pounds

I was so, so close to making it to my goal of getting the vacation weight off in two weeks. Just .2 lbs to go. (FYI, I gained 4.6 lbs. on vacation. blurg.)

don't mind the wrinkles


BTW - thank you for the really nice comments on my last couple of posts. It makes me want to blog more. Much appreciated. Love you all!


Friday Phone Dump
1. if we go to a restaurant, this is exactly what jacob will be doing - every time 2. my midnight chocolate the morning that lent was over 3. fruit salad for easter lunch 4. gracie at steak-n-shake after going to the dentist
5. peyton and tanner walk 6. family easter photo 7. jacob sorting easter candy 8. good night peyton
9. gracie on the way to grandma's house 10. spring in Indiana 11. ballet class 12. arabesque

Monday, April 9, 2012

Binge Eating

I'm sure there's a medical definition for binge eating, but to me I imagine it's different for every person who struggles with eating.

This is what it means to me - my brain turns off to any self talk that would tell me to not eat whatever it is I want to eat. My brain just blocks it out. It's like a little kid that throws a tantrum - ears covered, eyes closed, screaming at the tops of their lungs so they can't hear the voice of reason. And the other part is while I'm eating the bite of food, like as soon as it goes in my mouth, I'm already reaching for the next bite.

This just happened. I had a bag of mini chocolates in my office - snickers, 3 musketeers, twixs, etc. I've had them in my office for three weeks without eating any. I had two this morning, two about an hour ago and just a few minutes ago I down 3 or 4 ( I honestly don't know because my brain was crazy). As I was eating them I was reaching for the next mini square to unwrap and eat without thinking about it.

I hate it. I hate what it says about me - to be controlled by food that way. To have no discipline. It's not like me.

I was afraid it would happen. I shouldn't have given up chocolate for Lent. I knew I would struggle with eating it once Easter arrived. I had a chocolate donut this morning. I never eat donuts at the office.

It's done now. I got up to fill my water and walked past the boxes of donuts and went back in my office and said enough - I put the bag of chocolates out with the donuts for the other staff so they can deal with them. Throw them away or whatever, I don't care, I just can't have them in my office. That was the first step, admitting all this on my blog is the second, and going to Zumba tonight is the third.

I can not allow food to control me like this. I'm too strong a person to do that and I've worked too hard to screw it all up.


Words of encouragement welcome!

Friday, April 6, 2012

Friday Phone Dump

1. gracie at willis tower 2. the note i found taped to by bed 3. my parents on their wedding day 42 years ago this week
4. ball and biscuit for apps and drinks 5. noel gallagher's high flying birds 6. good morning gracie
7. tanner always sucking on a blanket 8. the smolder 9. the boys
FINALLY! Finally, there is Instagram for Android. I'm so excited to continue playing around with this beautiful app.


Checking in. The scale was down a little this morning but I have a lot of work to do before my weigh in next week which is my deadline to get the vacation weight off.

Have a great weekend everyone!

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

It's Never Easy!

I'm surprised to find that I'm still struggling with portion sizes even after a week being back from vacation. Right now I'm going through feelings of regret for having eaten whatever I wanted while we were in Chicago. I'm wishing that I would have stayed on plan. The reason isn't because of the vacation weight gain but because I'm not where I was mentally a week ago. I've done damage to my mental game and confidence that I'm fighting to get back. This battle is definitely not worth those fries and milk shakes.

I'll keep up the good fight though. I'm going to Zumba tonight even though I'd much rather being playing with the kids outside or even continuing the cleaning kick I've been on lately. Actually, I'm going at 8 p.m. tonight so the playing with the kids excuse isn't even a valid one because they'll be going to bed. It doesn't matter though because I know I need to workout and I will go. My body is craving it and I will feel so awesome after it's over.