The end of January is not my favorite time of year. "Chaos" is the word that comes to mind. I'm gone the first week in January, come home for a week and then Jim is gone for his training. I just don't feel like I have things together and organized like I usually do. I don't have our family calendar up-to-date, the Christmas tree is still up and I just feel like I'm a step behind where I need to be.
And it's the same with my wellness life as well. I'm in this place of limbo. I feel like I'm circling the tarmac and can't make up my mind if I want to land or keep flying. This past week I did awesome with my eating at work, but completely lost it at night. I'm not able to make it to Zumba as often as I want because of scheduling conflicts, but there are other ways to exercise besides Zumba when those situations come up.
I just feel like I'm in a fog right now. I'm not motivated to do anything. I'm in a constant state of procrastination. I'm in a funk. I know what I need to do - starting with taking a good hard look at what my goals are for the year. I need some brainstorming sessions and to-do lists. But I keep putting it off. It's not my favorite thing to do, so I don't do it. But I know once I finally just hunker down and do it I'll be kicking myself for not doing it sooner.
I do know one thing. I've come up with my mantra for 2012. It's "RESULTS." I'm so sick of the wishing and hoping and praying. When I put in the work I get results and that is what I want - in all areas of my life. I want results.