Whenever I'm away from my blog too long I always put off posting even longer because I have so much I want to talk about and I feel like I need a lot of time to devote to writing. So, instead of doing that I'm just going to write some random bullets about what's up with me and what I'm thinking about these days ...
It's so predictable, but I'm one of those bloggers that stays away when I have a gain. I don't want to disappoint my readers by posting a gain. It makes me feel sad and like a failure. I know we all have our struggles and I should just get over myself and do what's best for my program and what's best is to keep blogging. It helps me so much.
I'm up to 194 and some change. I was 190.4 two weeks ago. I haven't been tracking consistently enough to know what my trouble areas are, but I feel like I shouldn't have gained that much weight over the past two weeks.
I've been in a Zumba funk lately. It's so scary to type that. I think it's just a little boredom setting in after having exclusively Zumba'd the last couple of years.
So when my friend Stacey said she was going to try out a interval training class at the YMCA, I jumped at the chance to join her. I went to Zumba at 6 p.m. on Wednesday and then met up with Stacey at 7 p.m. for the interval training class. The first 30 minutes were step and the last 30 minutes were weights and resistance bands. We both really liked it. It seemed like a moderate level class and the instructor was a lot of fun and made us feel welcomed.
When I grabbed a step for the circuit training class, I had a flashback to when I started exercising and how I didn't even start with a step, I just did the moves on the floor so that I could try and make it through the whole class. On Wednesday, I was proud of the fact that I killed the 30 minute step portion on a regular step, especially since I had already done 60 minutes of Zumba.
Holy sore abs! I was talking to Stacey this morning (two days after class) and she said "how are you feeling?" with a sly look on her face and I said "I'm in so much pain." Both of us said our abs and legs were sore.
It's amazing how when you do a different type of exercise that works areas of your body that you're not used to working, your body will show you that you're really not in as good as shape as you think.
I had some major self esteem issues last night. I went to Zumba and wore my new Zumba pants (that I've washed now) and three songs into the class, my pants were falling down my bottom. Luckily, I had on a long shirt, but there was no way I could make it through the class worrying about wardrobe malfunctions, so I went home defeated. I didn't want to be all grouchy the rest of the night so I changed clothes and went to the 8 p.m Zumba class. I couldn't even look at myself in the mirror during class. Whenever I would get a glimpse of myself I would cringe and see every roll and giggly part and it was all I could do to make it through class without crying. But I stuck it out and completed the class and felt better for it.
Jacob's First Communion was last Saturday and I wore my new dress. Now, totally unlike the above bullet, I felt so beautiful this day. I was proud of how I looked and excited to be wearing the dress! (and super proud of Jacob of course)
Me and Jacob
My beautiful family
My eating has been my weakness lately (mostly portion sizes) but I have had some things to be proud of: after talking my mom out of eating cookies she was being tempted with at work, I proceeded to take a Jimmy Johns cookie from my office break room, sneak it to my office and start eating the edges from it. I got to the middle of the cookie, which I was saving for last because it's the best part and I stopped for the split second that I needed and said - "what the heck am I doing" and without thinking I just threw it in the trash can. I threw that thing away like it was on fire.
My dog thinks he's a cat
This made me so stinking happy
as did this
I can't really top Ron Swanson dancing so I'll end for now.