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I'm Not Ready Yet

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I got on the scale this morning and it read 200.6. My scale is pretty wonky and I usually have to get on it several times to get a consistent reading so I figured it was one of those times and got on it again. 200.6.

My gut reaction was: "no, I'm not ready yet."

What does that mean? I'm not sure yet. I seriously was not ready to see 199 this morning.

I did get on again 30 minutes later after I ate breakfast and it read 202.6 twice in a row.

I need a new scale.

But, I will be giving some thought to why I had that reaction. I've had a pattern of "fear of success" in the past so I need to figure out if I'm going to have any issues reaching this goal. Truth is I've never reached a weight loss goal I've set for myself before. You know, the ones like - lose 30 pounds by this vacation or be in this size dress at the class reunion. I always failed miserably at those goals. So this is a new thing for me. I'll keep you posted to what I conclude after I give it some more thought.
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